Well, it's been a long strange road. When I was 29 my husband passed away from kidney failure leaving me and two very small children. It was tough, but we survived. I worked two jobs, and we made it. A couple of years later, I remarried a man I thought was wonderful. We had two more children together. But it wasn't long before he started showing signs of PTSD (he was a psychologocally retired police officer). The children and I stood it out for 14 years and finally one day when he pulled a gun on us, I said that was enough and I left. I was found to have a brain tumor in 2001, along with chronic anxiety and depression. I was recently diagnosed with ulcerative colitis or crohn's disease. They are running tests on me to find out what is wrong as I have had stomach problems for years, and the past 12 weeks, I have been unable to leave the house due to these stomach problems. I have taken care of two ill husbands, and raised 4 beautiful children, but the financial problems are becoming overwhelming. I even got into real estate and was doing well, but I started in July 2005 and the market feel apart here in 2006. I am hoping to return to school to learn web page design. I feel I could make a good living at this, be proud of myself and be able to work from home to deal with my health issues.
In any case, I am about $11,000 behind on my house payment. I owe a $600 electric bill plus a $1600 deposit and I feel I am at my witt's end.
I don't like asking for help. I've always been the person who helped others and that's what I like doing. I took care of sick husbands, raised 4 children, I now take care of my 81 year old mother. I have always volunteered for the local food drives, have helped cook thanksgiving dinners for the homeless, volunteered for the salvation army ringing the bell, and currently serve on Kiwanis which is a global organization that helps underpriviliged children.
I am embarrassed to ask for help but I feel like I am at my witts end and don't know where to turn.
Thank you for listening.

